If there’s one thing I’ve learnt over the past couple of failed relationships, it’s this: you attract what you fear.
Fear is a funny thing. As much as you want it to go away, it actually reveals your underlying beliefs. When you fear something, you deeply (probably unconsciously) believe that something has the power to hurt you. Whether it’s a spider, falling from a height, or being left by a man that you have opened yourself up to, or even being left alone in the world while everyone else is busy with their families.
I’ve been feeling saturated.
So I went looking for space — within myself and around myself.
Instead of going to my usual silent meditation course, I decided to go to an ashtanga yoga retreat. Apart from being meditation in motion, it actually creates physical space within you: through the stretching of the body but also through the expanse of breath that plays a primary role in this practice.
There are days where I get so caught up working, thinking and writing and designing, that I start to feel cross eyed from spending the entire day in my head and not in my body.
It’s hard enough to navigate through life and all its emotions, challenges, losses and frustrations without having to also be the best version of you in your work, family, friendships and still manage to come out feeling accomplished, creative and free.
We have this fabricated notion etched into our brains that work and real life are all about discomfort, and holiday and breaks are all about comfort. We have this notion implanted into us that real work entails production and generating financial capital, and deep inner work is a luxury afforded to those who have earned the freedom to play after putting in their time, across a lifetime or even generations.
I won’t lie, working for yourself, and by yourself, really isn’t for everyone.
Self motivation is just the start of the list of tools you've got to have in your back pocket to make it work.
Self confidence, self correction, and self promotion are three things that don't really get talked about much with regards to self employment.
Each of us gets to have only the tiniest slice of the experience that is known as life on earth as a human being.
And we cling so tightly to our own version of the world, afraid it might prove to be false, that we constantly confirm with others on our path if they've had the same experience, just to reassure ourselves that our version of life is true, reliable, fact.
I'm on the edge between reality and insanity. Does the world really exist or have I made it all up?
I've always been on the edge — always.
It's the edge between fear and fascination. I've always been so fascinated by other people, the way they think, talk, act, live — and so afraid that one day they'll find out I'm not like them, and laugh, or worse, leave.
I’m standing at the very bottom of a deep and dark valley.
Deep. Dark. Vast. I feel tiny.
I know where I came from, the mountain I scaled to get here looms behind me, so far in the distance now, it's dwarved by time. The challenge it once presented isn't even a memory in my muscles anymore. They've rested and recovered, and forgotten.
I used to try and fit in, and stand out at the same time. I learnt how to dress, talk and work in a way that let me do them both.
I adapted the way I presented myself based on who I was meeting and what I wanted them to think about me. I even presented myself online in the way that I wanted people to see me, so they respected me, and even envied me.
I created an identity for myself that made most people wish they could be me. Even me.
I did it because not doing it wasn't good enough, was a regret I didn’t want to live with
I did it so that in any moment that I died, I could feel fulfilled and complete I did it because it made me feel alive
And what could be worse than feeling like you’re dead before you’re a corpse?
Do you have to quit your job and chase your dream just to live a life of meaning and fulfilment? How do we find passion and creativity in our lives without risking it all? Can’t we just have it ALL?
Passion and creativity comes in many different forms but is absolutely essential for feeling fulfilled as a human being.
I’ve taken the risks, so you don’t have to. Here are 10 steps you can start taking every single day to cultivate more passion in your own life, starting today. Pick one, or do them all.
We live in a world where you are known for what you believe in, and as you get closer to your own truth, you may lose some people along the way. This is actually great. Who wants followers or friends that don’t believe in us, anyway?
Someone said to me the other day, “What is life but a constant competition?”
“My life isn’t a competition, it’s a quest," I replied. A quest to be the best version of me. The most real and honest version of me. The me I was born to be, without fear or apology. The me that shines so bright, it lights up the sun itself.
Do you wish you could follow your dreams and live a life of passion, but you’re not sure you can pull it off? Here’s how I learnt to commit to my own success by paying attention to this one thing.
We all find ourselves consumed by self-doubt from time to time. Am I making the right decision, am I good enough, am I going to regret this… these questions plague us and keep us awake at night...
I’ve made a new friend.
We used to be at odds. He would taunt me, annoy me, make me doubt myself. Sometimes to the point of insanity.
Whenever I do anything I haven’t done before, and don’t really know how it will turn out, he is always there reminding me I might not make it. And he’s always so goddamn close, it’s like he lives right inside me.
I have the power to shift your reality without you even knowing it. Want to know how? Step into my world. This is the story of how I got where I am today.
I was born an artist.
But I wasn’t just your typical Picasso who could draw a line and turn it into a work of art. I’m an artist of stories and ideas.